Trying to make it through another day. But it is so hard sometimes...

Did some running today so it's a happy day! And yet, it's summer, but why does it feel sad too? I'm just looking at the lights swirling on the wall and trying to find a meaning in this all. Listening to ambience and pretending to run away somewhere where noone expects anything of me, where I can be free, truly free...

Missing running a lot. Struggling with allergies, poor health, tiredness and just overall exhaustion. Missing running and feeling alone and alive...

Currently dealing with some messing up with food, trying to start again. It's difficult but I made some discoveries that I think will help me get back on track and get better. It's a lovely but silent summer Sunday. Feeling both hopeless and hopeful, the kind of mood that is also bitter and sweet at the same time like wine. Trying to find beauty in life even today, though the solitude is a heavy blanket that weighs on my shoulders...

Today I began working on my website design. Not sure how this will help with my burnout and trying to find hope and inspiration in this life again but it is a big dose of childhood nostalgia which is both comforting and melancholic. Writing on this little blog feels like in the old days again where nothing was so transparent and seen, you felt like you could exist in your own little bubble. I miss that kind of magic and mystery...